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so beautiful

October27


Sometimes the world is so beautiful.


It’s all so beautiful I want to cradle it in my arms and gaze into the calm pictures that surround me. I want to draw the night into myself. The fresh smell of the afternoon rains slowly drying. The aroma of the leaves, now wet, but only just. The leaves give off a clean organic smell, a life smell.

The autumn wind comes up behind me, warm and familiar and whispers in my ear all the sweet nothings he has been saving all year for me. “Don’t you see,” he says, “I’m back, I’ve missed you..” as the wind wraps itself tenderly along my neck and shoulders.


“Liar,” I laugh to him. But all the same happy he is back, for a while, anyway, before he struggles with the witch of winter gales.

I want to draw the night into myself, and share it with you.

My feet, clad in comfortable tennis shoes, solid steps against the glistening ground. I am walking back from the tiers, marveling at the street lamps all lit up like white Christmas lights along the parking stalls(hmm stalls, like horses used to have stalls…)

My car is parked out there, happily, after I pulled into the lot(where does lot come from?) wondering where the word ‘free’ came from.

Surely the concept of freedom is easier to understand than the word.

Some words tell tales of their history and ours. But what is the origin of the word freedom. Free…Dom…
mmm, I can’t fathom it tonight.

Mood forecast for Stacie tonight is happiness with a great chance of contentment, and an excitement front coming in around the weekend.

Dream Well!


Rissia

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states of undress

October26

I have been walking off the sidewalks and into the grassy areas on campus. They are covered with the colored vestments of the season. There are so very few things that make as satisfying a sound as the leaves which go crunch-swoosh as you walk through them. Today is a beautiful day, it’s one of those warm autumn days that makes you want to strip naked and walk around in the warm sunlight.(not for other to see you, but to feel the season fully). I get this urge every time we have a beautiful and warm autumn.


I have to be content with lounging around bare in my dorm room. It’s such a pleasure to lie naked in the middle of your floor(which you recently vacuumed) and lazily watch tv and perhaps do crunches(which are good for you and just because you are being lazy doesn’t mean you can’t improve your body.)


Unfortunately, every time I mentally voiced a thought along the lines of(it’s so nice to have my own room to be able to do this), I got a visitor knocking at my door. That was three for yesterday, who found me in various states of dress. Don’t worry, I got all decent-fied before opening the door(mostly). *giggle*


I have been informed that Boy is now checking his Quixotica mail, and as it is all operational and stuff you should all be sending him little trinkets and info, and love from me. Mail is good so send him stuff, ok!


Love you Boy!

Love you all!

Stacie

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The ancient song

October22


I am having a most excellent day! Made it on time to class, with time to print out my latest newswriting asignment. Classes have let out early. And I’ve had the world’s happiest screensaver on repeat in my brain… a cute lil ssaver from a comic called
Reality Check.

Mmm, I’ve been skipping aikido latly, because, unhappily, my ankle is sore and tight and wierd. I really don’t wanna injure myself, but ack, I wanna go to aikido.


Time has really been moving past me. Flying past me like the comic book Flash. But the autumn I find myself in is a beautiful collage of scents and visions. Visions of fire and gold hanging in the skies, painting the air amaze me. Natural fireworks suspend my breathing more than most anything. I am LOOKING at everything with high scrutiny. It’s wonderful to be in love in autumn. Love gives you super vision I’ve found, every leaf shines like gold. I want to take in everything I see, surround myself in a cloak of woven leaves. Autumn is an ancient song that sings of the best fantasy adventures about to take hold. (I can almost see the Fall-dragons hiding in the piles of leaves which form their coats…)


And the wind is lovly this year…


MINDCRIME.ORG
It’s later than you think…

*Rant*I hate it when you refute


my feelings/observations,


they are mine, darn-it> */Rant*

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Mindcrime

October19

MINDCRIME LAUNCHES TODAY!

Mindcrime–It’s later than you think!

Go check out the place! We might be a rowdy bunch, but we made our deadline!

11:58 p/m/

Oy, I’m tired, have spent since lunch in this office, working on flash…

Yawn…

MINDCRIME.ORG

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Hai Hai

October16

Hai!!!


Angie developed her pictures from Homecoming, she even had a couple of me, and boy. So here’s a treat for you!



ain't love grand

red lipstick and heels, even though you can't see those

Isn’t that Lisptick great?!

I can’t believe it is friday already! This week has gone soo fast. Ayii! Midterms are next week and it feels like I just started getting to class. This week I was better on time, which is good. But I can’t believe that I’m going to be missing Heidi once again! It always seems that when I’m here in Platteville she’s in Madison, or vice versa.

Oh well, I love you dearie, we’ll connect sometime, I promise!

Tonight, I get to hang with my Dad, we’re gonna hit some movie. We talked this week on the phone, and had a really nice talk. Boy gets to
go to Hockey(I’m jealous!) and then I get to see him tomorrow.

LATER…

Whew, Have I gotten an incredible amount of things done tonight.


Saw ANTZ with my Dad, it was really fun and very beautiful. Realistic Ants?

I also updated practically all pages in
Onemind
. Surprise! Mmm, well, I made my Beowulf paper work, added to the randomness,
updated our bios, changed email addresses and added links. Didn’t update the scattered mind stuff, but that’s a separate mess anyday. BTW FreakyGirl, what is the storybook.cgi, I don’t understand how it works.


Also got a lot of digital cleaning done here on Quix, cleaned up some duplicate files and code around here. Tried to make the Bio page looke better. Now it’s time to sleep.


Dream well all…

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Gallery opens!

October14

Mmm, short entry for now, I’m in the library and should be doing research.

I put some pictures up off my QuixCam page. Currently titled theGallery of the Absurd It stars Me, Boy, and Jon(in the army hat). Enjoy!

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One of those days

October12

Did you ever have one of those days?


No, not those days.


But a really extra beautiful and productive day?

A day where things, while not being perfect are finally offering you handles to swing them around by. In essessnce you have enough control for the day that your mind is tolling ‘all is well, all is well.’?

And then you check your messages, Oh it’s mom, they were in town ten min ago, but are leaving. A quick call to her driving away says it was too late for them to wait really. I scold her for not waiting to stay and buy me dinner.

And then she hits me with it.


‘Well, you didn’t call me on my birthday, I guess we’re even’


All wind is taken out of my sails. I have been deflated.


And Oh, I can hear the pain in her voice. I find myself apologizing profusely, with tears. I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry.

I almost jump in my car to drive home, but icq’s from Boy tells me thats not a very good idea.

I feel so ashamed, I will make ammends, but shoot, birthdays only come once a year.

In other Quixotic news(Hah! No segue for you…)

I got my paper back ‘C+’. a ‘+’ better than I could have gotten at the beginning of the summer. Blah. But it’s over, as Heidi says.
Boy tells me to learn from it, and realize that 2 weekends of work do not an ‘A’ paper make. And while I’m sure it was at least a B, and that my other papers last semester were b’s I can’t expect a better grade. He also tells me to learn from it. And yesteday I made the resolution to work harder, be on time, do really well.

Which I suppose swings me full circle, I worked very hard on my presentation, and even got to class early to set it up.

I gave no thought to my mothers day of birth.

We’ll have to see how flowers from
Boy will do.


We interupt this angst with a newsbrief
She just called me back, Boy was waiting on the doorstep with the flowers from me. I wished her happy birthday. She said the flowers were beautiful, and that he must like me pretty much, because he was waiting for them to get back from on the road(I had called her cell phone.)
I gotta get to Aikido. more later.
btw I’ll spell check later

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Iself and I

October6

I knew how I wanted to begin this morning…


Twisting around in my sheets and blankets I woke writhing as a whale beached from a sea of dreams.




My dreams last night do not impede upon my thoughts of day, and yet at waking time and another time before the alarm I awoke with
the strangest sensation. A sensation without identity. I could not place where I was. And the Who of myself, the mental mirror and voice that
I am ninety-five percent of the day must have continued to sleep, because I was someone somewhere. Not Stacie the (fill in the blank) not fat not skinny not of emotions, just I. How do we become I. You are I, and I am I.
Practically everyone is I, when they are simply I and simply alone.

The I gave into sleep and simply pulled the blankets of here around Iself and drifted back into some semblance of placeless sleep. Tread lightly, for sometimes the psyche sleeps, and the id is a sated watchdog.

‘night


Stacie

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cool shades

October2

New in quixmix!


new is quixmix




happy daze…



night–


ate at kfc

played gex

watched dean cain in a movie

talked on phone to Boy!

putzed…


sigh

time for sleep

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