I’ve been having moving anxiety dreams lately. In one from last week, I was turned into a evil witch.(with wings no less)


The other dream, from last night, I had bought a house, and then went off to an amusement park, or faire with Carlo and Becky and Drew,
when I came back to my house it was in complete disarray, chairs overturned in the hallway. A quick look in my bedroom creates a shock, my bed had been disassembled, my bed is gone, half my room is spilled all over the floor. The rest of the dream is angry yells, as I realize my father has moved my bedroom to a smaller spare bedroom, in my own house. I remember having an argument with him, at a lavish dinner table, with candles. I just kept yelling at him for moving my room, was in shock that he even got in my house, that sort of thing. Disconcerting.


So, yeah, things are stressful, with the move coming up, it’ll be nice to finally get things in some sort of order. And I get to participate in more moving goodness, as my work shuffles lets us play musical desks again. But that’s not for a couple weeks yet.


I’m so glad all this is happening in autumn. There is just enough magic in the crisp air, in the hanging gold, to make me forget my frustrations, and be happy for existing, for driving, for sunshine and laughter.


October is almost here, gamers get silly in October. Heidi tells me she already has her costume. I hope we can get some sort of party together, I love Halloween.


Heidi would also like me to mention that tonight is a NEW BUFFY, and to rejoice in your own fashion, preferably with the WB. That’s where we’ll be tonight. (she’s been bouncing from the rafters today, she always does on new Buffy day)

Talk to y’all later

Stacie

We went back to the Kareoke Kid last night, It was really nice not to have to cram in a full bar. Doug, Paul, Carlo and I practically had the whole bar to ourselves. It was great, we all got to sing several songs we wanted. We sang duets, each sang 3-5 songs, so much fun.



Last time our group only sang 3 songs and we had to wait an hour to get to them. I want to go back on another night that isn’t so busy too, its the best way to practice and get comfortable with the mics and screens.



Lets see, I sang, ‘Sweet dreams(are made of these)’, L-O-V-E(nat king cole), A duet with Carlo (Now I had) The time of my life, and ended with Fiona’s Criminal(I started strong and kinda lost it, I hate the annoying bar guys that had to take the table right by the mike and talk loud right beside me). It was kinda sad too, I was the most comfortable at the end there, and while I had trouble with part of the song, it was ok. But those jerks were so loud and distracting, I couldn’t tell if they were talking to me, about me or just being obnoxious. Heh, so I started singing much higher than I started. Ah, well, Carlo says it’s time to practice. Carlo sang ‘White Wedding’, and hit the notes with confidence. Paul has an amazing voice(the bartenders kept shouting for him and holding their lighters up), and Doug sang something about cakes melting in the park.


It’s hard to go on a weeknight though, by 10:30 I was much too tired to continue. In fact, I was so ready to go that I forgot to settle my tab with the bar. (oops, they still have my debit card)


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I hate how sad she sounds on the phone. how hurt, I don’t like to hurt her, or dad.


Sigh,


Stacie

Today is his birthday, happy birthday, fiancee!

Denny is our massuse(sp?) at work, he is a good massuese(sp?) I think I overpaid him a bit though. I have enough stress today, it was good to get rid of what I could.

Who would have thought sushi was a comfort food.
Lunch with Nancy was nice.

I slept well last night, and woke up feeling numb.

We did go to Ginza last friday with Ace and Jess. It was one of the coolest places I have ever been for dinner. They sat us around a hibatchi griddle cooked all our food in front of us, lit an onion volcano on fire (with a flame at least 2 and a half feet high) I grinned the whole night through. My Teriyaki steak was wonderful.


I came back to Ace and Jess’s place on saturday, and Jess and I watched several tapes of Utena. These later episodes really hurt your head, too much going on, going wrong. I took the last 2 tapes to finish on my own, which I did on monday night. My head still is spinning from the ending, I’m still not sure what I think of it.

They are less than pleased, with our living arrangements.


sigh.

I’ve been engaged for just over a week, what a sweet thing it is.


And it’s autumn outside. I love this season, the air is cool, you are cold in the shade, but when you catch a beam of light, you feel like the sun is tenderly kissing you. The warmth of the sun in the crisp air feels like a secret, just learned.

It just feels like magic. The wind makes the trees dance, the leaves now have barely begun to turn, but soon, you can tell, the world around us will burst into fire and gold.


Last Friday we had such a good time, we had so many people get together for dinner and karaoke. Becky and Drew, and Wendy and Heidi and Todd(for a bit), and Jason, Doug,Chris and Jenni, Christian,Mike, Tony, Jon, 5. Wow! It was awesome to get with all our friends, and everyone got to hear again, how he proposed, and see my ring, and we got a couple gifts and cards, It was way cool. We went to chili’s where I ate the perfect combination of fajita quesadillas and chatted with Wendy and Becky about wedding stuff. And then, the staff came out and sang to us, it was so cool, and they gave us these huge goblet bowls of ice-cream with hardshell chocolate and whipped cream, yummy!


Then some of us went downtown to Karaoke Kid, and it was packed (very hard to find a parking spot to begin with) and we got our songs in right away. We still had to wait an hour for them to come up in the rotation, and we didn’t get to sing many (they take the book away after a certain time, so they can close the bar eventually) But it was sooo much fun, it’s one of the smallest bars, but it’s totally packed with people singing and dancing, in fact, I lost my voice way before I got to go up and murder ‘My favorite things” with Jenni.

But the best part was when Carlo got to the mic and sang Billy Idol’s White Wedding. (I love it when men sing, anyway) Billy is one of Carlo’s old favorites, it was so sweet, so it was fitting, even if the song is tongue in cheek. I had to keep pushing some of the guys around down in front of the mic so I could watch him better, and snap a couple pics. heh. It was a truly amazing birthday party for the both of us(carlo’s is in september, mine in august)

We plan on more karaoke next week, it’s so much fun there


The rest of the weekend was mostly role playing in Platteville, we had such a great time. It’s hard to describe the sense of it all, to have such a wonderful weekend as we did.


Ace and Jess, regrettably had to miss out on our extravaganza, but wanted to have us go out to Ginza and a movie tonight, we can’t wait!



Enjoy the magic of this season,

Stacie

*giggle*



Well, We were going to tell mom about him moving in… but mom called before I left work telling me she was having a nervous breakdown from too much work that she’s been doing. We were going to go over and talk about web stuff for my ‘rents biz ideas. And I was so frustrated that I wrote him an email telling him that I might be coming home early.



Then I tried to call Carlo at my place, after mom called, but he didn’t answer. So I figured he was out running errands or something. So I drove home, thinking about how to tell her about him moving in. When I parked, I didn’t see his car and I walk up my steps and notice I don’t have to unlock the door.



When the door opens a bit, I can see a rose on the shelf by the door, and I think, ‘how sweet, Carlo bought me a rose to cheer me up’ (because he does that every once in a while.)



And then I look down, and see another rose, and another, and there’s on one the TV, and they lead to the center of the room where there is a pile of them.(a whole dozen in total) And I, just peeking my head in the door, saw only in peripheral, Carlo, down on his knees(it was actually just one) but I thought he was setting up, oh no! I’ve ruined the surprise, so I ducked back out the door.



So he called me back in “Baby, Stacie, get back in here” and I came back in and saw all the roses, and him down on one knee with a little white box and I threw my stuff down and raced over to him, buried my face in his neck and gave him a big hug. I was laughing and crying and giggling all at the same time as he asked me to marry him, all I could say, in a high pitched voice was, “Are you SERIOUS?!!!!”



Of course I said yes, after the second time he said it, I was just in so much total shock, overwhelmed for so many reasons, and he asked me a third time too(I said yes then too), and I laughed, giggled and cried for the next half hour or so! All I could say, over and over was, “Oh my goodness, oh my goodness, oh my!”



Don’t you want this, he said, pushing the white box at me, as I kept hugging and kissing him. I opened it to see the secret he’d been keeping for a few months, and he put is on my hand. My eyes welled with happy emotion, I still feel all gooey warm lovey inside.


So we went over to talk to my parents, and they were shocked, and happy I think, and then we went over to wait for his mom to come home, to tell her, and I’m just really happy. I’m so happy that we can be a unified front, a team(more than we are now), he’s really really important to me.



Apparently, he’s had the ring since July! He’s been driving around with me, in the car, with it, thinking about just springing it on me, at a time that seemed right. and it just didn’t, I guess till last night(though he mentioned he had thought about it for Wednesday). He didn’t tell anyone, he didn’t say anything to any of his friends until after, what a total surprise. heh.



Chris called us, after he plugged the phone back in(which is why I couldn’t get a hold of him) and Carlo said, “Dude, I’m sorry I had to hang up on you earlier, I had to propose to Stacie”


So, now I’m engaged. Wow!